To Thine Own Self Be True

I think at the root of everyone's problems is fear and self loathing. Certainly, that is at the root of my problems. Or maybe problems are caused by fear and self loathing? I know that I make things so much harder on myself when I listen to the screaming voices in my mind that tell me I can't do something, or I will fail or I am destined to never achieve my dreams. Truth is, maybe I need to be prepared for the reality that I may not make my dreams come true. But that doesn't mean I should drink in the cup of complacency and avoid striving for the stars.

I haven't liked myself very much over the years. Well, now that's a bit harsh. Truth is, I have liked myself, but I've been afraid to reveal the real me. People get me- but just not necessarily in all my flavors. They get pieces of me, compartmentalized and gift-wrapped for the occasion. I'm working now to lead an authentic life, a life that is true to who I am at all times, with all people. This of course, is easier said than done, because I am fighting years of insecurity and fear and old habits. I have not fully embraced all that I am and I can't expect to just free myself from the shackles of expectations (mine and others) just because I have decided to be true to me.

I am a work in progress. My story is yet to be written and played out on the grand stage of life. My hopes and dreams are needing some tender loving care after years of neglect and self-sabotage. Who I am won't be right for all people, but it will be right for me. In 'The Year of the Sally', I am learning this: I am good enough. And I need not fear who I am. I have dreams and schemes that may seen outrageous and far fetched but they are mine to dream and mine to aspire to. All we have is who we are and what we hope to be. So dream big and live true to you!