Just Say No to Mediocrity

Miss Sucky is having herself quite the week. She is moody and grumpy and weepy and generally hovering under a grey cloud of discontent and personal dissatisfaction. Miss Awesome is usually a ray of sunshine and cuts through even the dreariest of days. But Miss Awesome is not winning the battle this week. Miss Awesome is struggling to retain her grip (on sanity and in having the upper hand that is the power struggle between both herself and Miss Sucky.)

I've been struggling a bit lately because my life isn't lining up with my passions. My days are filled with the sameness of a life that I feel I've become trapped in. When life doesn't add up in the way we want, it's easy to feel unsatisfied, annoyed, and helpless. But there is power. You have all the power you ever need with yourself. Don't like your life? Change it! That has always been my motto. Adjust your attitude or adjust the situation. Something's gotta give, something's gotta change. And usually, as annoying as it is to admit, the thing that has to change is us!

So what are the causes for my deep dissatisfaction? They are, in truth, too numerous to list and perhaps even ambiguous to me. So I guess the real question here is, what am I going to do about it? I certainly feel stuck in a vortex of lost dreams and broken ideals. But that is too much "Miss Sucky" type thinking. And I AM Miss Awesome (even when I feel like I or everything about my life sucks.)

What am I going to do about it? About ensuring I don't stagnate here in this moment where fate and circumstance has pinned me down? I guess I ought to recognize it as an opportunity to ensure that I don't wallow here for too long. Feeling like I'm stuck in mediocrity might not actually be such a bad thing. Because, firstly, at least I recognize I am. And secondly, saying no to medocrity means movement. It means action. It means that I have to do something to change my here and now, rather than just blame bad luck or bad timing or any of the things that pop into my Miss Sucky brain. It means taking responsibility for my life (another thing Miss Sucky would rather avoid) and moving towards making my life meaningful in every little moment (roadblocks, stagnation, long trailing paths up steep hills with no end in sight included.)I have the power to change my life. Me. All the self-help books, the gentle proddings from friends and doors of opportunity mean nothing if I don't get some traction and take some action. Saying no to medocrity means saying yes to motion. So I'm gonna get going because it's all up to me. Just as its always been.