The Year of the Sally

My roommates and I have decreed that 2011 is not just the year of the rabbit, but the year of the Sally. We are even thinking about getting t-shirts printed; something snazzy with stars and glitter perhaps, and maybe a catchy slogan like "It's all about the Sally". Well, probably something a little more catchier than that...but whatever! My point is, and i think i may even have one, that this year is my year. The good thing about the start of a New Year is that it gives us a chance to start again. Kind of. Actually, we don't need a New Year to do that for us. We can start each day, even each moment that way. It's just the promise of a New Year seems to offer us the opportunity to say "This is my year! This is my chance to change my life, undo the mistakes of the past and maybe not f@#k it all up." We are ten days into it, and so far I've managed to stick to some of the patterns I'm trying to create in my new life. But every now and then there are those days that come along and make you think, that this year, just like any other, is going to be filled with its own trials, tribulations and tears. And maybe even a few tantrums along the way.
So what does The Year of the Sally offer me? The same things it probably offers you; new opportunities for work and play, romances lost, forsaken or hopefully, in my case, found and bound and locked in my basement. Just kidding. I don't have a basement!
It offers us to be the person we want to be. And for me that means being true to myself. I've finally decided to stop pushing myself around, to realize that I am a person of worth, with boundless creativity, with hopes and dreams that can be realized if I would just step out of my own fears and insecurities. This is step one...right here, right now, what you are reading. A baby step on my road to rediscovering who I am and who I wish to be and hopefully being able to reconcile the two to each other! This is my chance to let the awesomeness out or as Katy Perry puts it in her song Firework," You just got to ignite the light and let it shine." This song is one of my defining mantra's of the moment. It inspires me to move out of the shadows, to push aside the negative self-talk that has become an ugly habit I am in the process of trying to break once and for all, and to become the woman I was destined to be. I'm not entirely sure who she is yet- right now I'm stuck in the middle of being Miss Awesome and Miss Not -so- much (that's where the "I suck" factor comes in). I'm leaning towards Miss Awesome because that's what I am. I am awesome....when I don't suck!